.Saturday, August 01, 2009 @ 11:22 PM Y
.silence.
Currently tuning into: The Saturdays - FallI gave you all you desired,
All that you needed,
Boy I provided,
I let you into my head, into my bed,
And that’s a privilege,
I had your back in the answers,
You took the dollars,
I took the chances,
Defended battled and fought,
Cause I really thought you loved me.
You said that you were the strong one,
I was the girl and I was the young one,
I kept your feet on the ground,
My head in the rounds, I had you,
You told me you were so grateful,
I was with you and I was so faithful,
I stood by in all that you said,
And all that you dared, I loved you.
Fall, out of my head, out of my heart,
And when you hit the ground,
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around,
I will watch you,
Fall out of your mind, out of your fantasy,
When you hit the wall, think of me,
I’ll be on the top, just watching you fall.Oh fiki wiki,I'm dead jealous of the fact that you went with your boyfriend to other countries & had so much fun. Fer me, I don't even have a boyf now. Pfft.
Which gave me an idea. Help me out people. Now I'm looking for a
superhot rich drop dead gorgeous temporary boyf who can go holiday with me, so that I can shop & dine & have fun with him & sleep in his arms at night.. Xkene paw kaw2 ko nnt ngan aku HAHAHAHA. Kejam tol minah nih. =.=
I'm Goddamn bored wey. This is what you get when you're single really. Supposingly single, when I tell people I still have a boyf & stuff. Wtf. No boyf, scandal2 sekalian masing2 menghilang. Oh, wait. That was b'cuz I told them all I got no credit when basically, I just reloaded my phone. HOHOHO. Sanggap dowh. Sanggap kiss. Ngahahaha. Screw you people man, I'm currently fucked up bored & not in my right mind. So yea, forgive me for this random idiotic post of mine.
Can't wait fer tmrw really. Ktar Sports Carnival, but I'll be going to get syg at Bangi 1st. & I just realised tht I didn't have to find a red top fer tmrw, I already have this red dress that I rarely wear. & to think that the only red top I thought I saw in my room was that cheongsam. Wtfff. I'm hoping certain unexpected miracles would happen at some point. I need more excitement in life, I currently feel like I'm dead & six feet under.
Meanwhile, watched that video again, the one that's in my previous post. About Sam & Esther. Seriously, once you think of it, they're not the only ones in the world. God have mercy, we live lives full & so much more complete than them yet we complain of not having this & not having that. What about those that we see, the ones with no food & drinks, no comfortable bed to sleep in, no love, being abandoned by others? We should all take awhile & think of the others, & be grateful for each complete day we live.
I'm really happy fer the children in tht video, finally they have the chance to live in a place full of love & comfort. But it breaks my heart to think of the many others out there who go through the same life as them. Thus, this lead to my new hope before I die.
Before I die, I wish to visit these sort of places, & give all the help that I can afford. I pray to God that sometime in future I'll get the money to help these people, to contribute to giving them the life that they deserve. It'll kill me of course, if just watching this video can make me cry, I can't imagine seeing the whole thing fer real.
Some people might be thinking that I'm talking bullshit atm, but well, we'll see. Which reminds me. I've been to this place before, some rumah orang cacat in Kuantan. Mainly it was full of those who were mentally disabled, but it was fun being with them, seeing them laugh, entertaining us like little kids, where they sang & stuff like that. Then there was this Malay boy who was my age, & was autistic. It was cute, I sat next to him, watching him feed another little boy tht stayed there too. Sad though, he looked so normal, who would have thought. & he was my age. While I was out there enjoying life, there he was, being in some home fer the disabled, struggling to live a normal life. Sometimes we really should think of what we have, & be dead grateful.
Lend a helping hand, & help those in need. & I strictly include animals in this case too.
And there's never a night I sleep
With the dreams that I'd have if you never decided, decided to leave
I'll wait for you
If you never change I will be okay
But I'll still stay up for you
Just in case you make the time for the right move
Eyes Set To Kill's new song, Come Home. No it's no a screamo song la. I listen to it & feel like crying, almost every single lyric describes how I feel, & what I do.
That particular person should actually listen to that song & be reminded how lucky he should be to have some one like me love him. HOHOHO. Here's a fact about me. I do love people easily, & I do get bored easily too. So to love a person fer this long, well, let's say this is a first.
