Currently tuning into: Yuna - Dan Sebenarnya

So many couples that have been together for a looong time, even up until years end up breaking up. Gosh it's scary. Eventhough I have no problems so far with Amin it's scary thinking of that possibility.
:|

I'm gonna call UTAR up tmrw & ask if their intake fer May's still open or not. I dead hope it is, b'cuz I want to go there to study & get myself a place there to stay. Full stop. I would love to stay on my own, even if it's just fer a while. I've been saying that fer the past few years, & yes I'm still saying it now. I wanna experience life living without parents fer once. & college life's the best opportunity.

Oh, & I'm also hoping that I get rejected to go to UiTM. Much as I want to study far, my 'far' is within Slgr, thank you very much. I'm not going out of the state for nothing.

Currently tuning into: Hey Monday - Candles

Proof that syg added me.





Ngahahaha.
I add you sbb u cute la eh syg?
HOHOHO.

N'way, I so fucking bored it's way beyond words. Oh, & I'm craving fer chocolate & Ben & Jerry's wtff. ):



Dah nak kul 3 pg, what u expect? xD



So, my pics are starting to be like my old ones, where I look nothing like how I really am. Xpe la, skali skale kot. Pfft. But I feel so..fake wtff.

Currently tuning into: Hey Monday - 6 Months

Loving a person, who ever said it was easy? It never was, yet it can also be the best experience to feel. Currently discussing it right now on YM, with Syukri, one of my best friends online. Talking about some girl he loves very very much, yet tht girl doesn't love him back. Eventhough all his sentences were incomplete, I completed them for him flawlessly. B'cuz I know, how it is to love a person.

You don't just love a person by telling them that you love them everyday. You need to feel, to give & take in the game of love. I understood Syukri fully. I know how it feels to love a person so much, yet feel as if they didn't love us back, or worse, know tht they don't love us back. I know how depressing it is when they betray your trust, how you get so angry yet you just let it go, b'cuz you don't ever want to lose tht person.

Loving a person was never easy, yet if you know how to play through the game it can be the best experience ever.

Now, back to comforting dear old Syukri. Lol.

Currently tuning into: Hey Monday - Candles

Got bored & started tampering with the software I persuaded Syukri to give me. HOHO. So, let these pics do the talking. (:

Last night syg came on and..


So I read his status, said wtf, laughed, &..


Then suddenly this unknown dude IM-ed me &..


After talking bout loving cats (wtfff) I decided to push it &..


Ngahaha. Tp lps tu ley lak die..


Meanwhile I continued my debate with some lesbian on how much my boyf really loved me & ignored this 'datuk k kawen lari', who right until this moment I have no idea who he is. Wahaha.




Today. (:
Song's 6 months, by Hey Monday.


This is just a random post really, I'm uber bored.
T_T


Laters, gotta go fetch my bro from tuition.
Yea, driving without a license.
Woot!
;P

Currently tuning into: The Veronicas - Revenge Is Sweeter Than You Ever Were

So. Today at gym I decided to go downstairs & do my workout instead of the usual ladies room. N'way, there was this dance class going on in the energy studio. It was sure fun to see some guy instructing the class & shaking his ass. God, talk about gay. Pkai pink lak tuh. Sumpah nak pcah prut aku than glak. Imagine how Nad & Amin will be if they were there. Especially Amin, & his laugh yg xle bla one. Wahahaha. But then again, he has a phittt body wey. T_T

Currently tuning into: The Veronicas - Untouched

So I woke up this morning at 8 sumthing, happily telling mummy let's go gym. Don't ask me why I woke up so early, thanks to a ym fight last night with syg, I excused myself in saying I wanted to go to sleep, cuz basically, I was kinda out of words to say or in this case, type. Lol. But after that he called & then asked me to go to sleep wtf. So, I had to pakse myself to sleep at 1 sumthing, after all those nights of sleeping after 4. T_T

N'way, went back to sleep fer a while, since I was only going out at 10. Woke up & went to the bathroom to wash up, only to suddenly feel this piercing pain in my tummy, causing me to sink onto the toliet seat clutching my tummy & preventing myself from screaming. Looked like some woman who was suffering from a miscarriage WTF. Ahaha. N'way, went down to mummy to tell her xjd gi gym but she was obviously shocked to see how white & pale my face looked. So after a few painkillers & green tea I went back to sleep. Wtf haha. Now my tummy's still suffering from cramps though. ):


Meanwhile, a few nights back I got so bored & kinda school sick so I dug out my school uniform & started camwhoring. Ahaha.





Oh.
I still don't understand why men are such pigs. U have so many loved ones in front of you & yet you choose to find another. Oh fyi I'm not talking about my boyf, but someone else. Most men are so greedy, it's no wonder we call them pigs. Lmao. Haihs. Hampeh tol.

Driving test's tmrw. I'm feeling confident this time, I hope I pulled through. Actually had fun during lessons yesterday, hope it'll be just as fun tmrw.

Currently tuning into: Unknown artist - Flying Free


6 months.
It's already half a yr.
Time sure flies.


I love you, so so much, no one can imagine just how much I love you.
But there are some things I need to sort out & set straight in my head.
We obviously have to clear the mess on the path to continue on.

Currently tuning into: Plain White Ts - 1, 2, 3, 4

Checked out Susan Boyle, the latest topic among everyone around the world? Mum got me to check it out this morning. She was actually so touched she started crying. Haha.




click here to watch.


47 yrs old from Scotland, she's currently the talk of almost the whole world today, after being on the British show 'Britains Got Talent'. With looks that made people laugh & think that she was insane to even want to be on television, she wowed everyone with her angelic voice so powerful that was basically jaw-dropping. It sure sent tingles through my body. I swear, I've never heard a voice that breathtaking.

She sure taught everyone to never, ever judge a book by its cover. If you watch the video you'd notice some of the audience smirking & laughing at her, only to end up crying of guilt after hearing her sing. Haha. All the best to this wonderful lady.


Meanwhile, I just got back from Sunway with Amin & Anas. Went to watch Jangan Tegur. My first experience of watching a horror flick at the cinema. & after today, I swear I don't ever want to watch another freaking horror flick in the cinema anymore. I definitely prefer staying at home watching it on tv with a not-so-loud volume & pillows. Even having the boyf next to me wasn't comforting at all. Pfft.

The overall movie wasn't really that scary, but thanks to the stupid booming loud sound effects & huge screen, I ended up actually screaming & shaking with a very fast heartbeat while watching it. Only syg seemed to be calm, while I watched the movie through my fingers & Anas closed his eyes during the whole movie. Hahaha.


Realised that I haven't updated this blog in quite a while. Was quite lazy actually. Lol. & basically there was nothing much to post about. Which reminds me, my driving test's nx Wednesday, & I finally received my acceptance letter from Unisel. Not sure if I'll really be continuing my studies there though. & I really hope I pass my test this time. I urgently need my license right now.

Currently tuning into: Barry Manilow - Can't Smile Without You


It's already been a week. But memoirs of bby Thomas are still fresh in my mind. I still rmbr how he'd snuggle up behind my laptop when I'm online. Or how he'll answer me everytime I call him. Or how he'll sit next to me or mummy, adik, & papa & give tht kesian face just so tht we'll feed him some. Haha. Sigh.

It hurts, really, how something so lively can go just like tht. Ppl will look & be like "Seriously wey, it's just a cat, go get another one will ya?" Yet, what do they even understand. Only animal lovers, ppl who have pets & share bonds with them would understand. I hate this feeling really. The feeling of wanting to cry yet not being able to shed even one single tear. Gosh I swear I miss holding tht little fella, having him snuggle up to my neck. & to think tht in those last moments when I held him he was tht sick, yet he held his head up high & acted like nothing's wrong.



Gah. The tears have finally started pouring. I miss my little Thomas. )':

Currently tuning into: Katy Perry - Thinking Of You

So. To continue from the previous post, Amin & I got busted wtf. After being at the cc went back home, hoping tht my dad went to bed. To my horror however, I found out tht I left my keys at home. Well, calling mum at 4am would be a terrible idea, so drove around until finally, it was time to admit to mummy tht I wasn't home yet. As expected, both of us got lectured like kaw2, & Amin's punishment was to stay at my hse. Wtf. All the better fer me la kan? Hoho. N'way, he's been sleeping at my hse for the past few days, & well, I'd just post pics since I'm darn bored.


Syg's tummy. Hoho.


SMK Taman Melawati. While fer syg's softball practice to end.
Fyi, he doesn't go to school there wtf, he just trains the kids there. Lol.


Here's a few pics from tht night where we had Mcd. By the end of the meal we were all so bloated it was dumb.


Couple One: Saleh & Nad.


Couple Two: Amin & Frh.
I look shitty, so imagine how much worse I felt.





Lepaking in the park. Syg looks so cute in the 2nd pic! Lmao. Ahaha.


Sunway.


Otw to Keramat fer softball practice.
Sweet huh?
Feel the love. Haha.


So yesterday the four of us spent a whole day together. Seriously, yesterday was the best day ever fer me. Having both my loved ones with me, seeing my best, best friend so happily in love, while I as usual was with syg, it amazed me how so many dead ends we faced, & here we were, four of us double dating, having the best time ever.

Oh, went to watch Fast & Furious 4 at Summit last night, the four of us. Was expecting it to be dead bored, since after all, I didn't even watch the first 3. But surprisingly, the movie was amazing. Nak tgk lg dohh. Pfft.

Currently tuning into: Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

So. It's like friggin 2.40am & I'm at a cycercafe somewhere near Sunway with the boyf. Haha wtf lmao.

Spent another whole day out just like these few days had been. In the afternoon sent my cat Lucky to the vet's since he was sick. Then as usual followed syg back to Keramat, where he went fer his softball practice & I stay home to hang around with his family.

Got back & went to Summit, with initial intentions of going to the movies, only to end up visiting Nad & going back to her house after she finished work. Wtff. Got to meet her 'scandal', Saleh, fer the first time. Then the four of us went to Carlos (old hangout place wey! haha) & dropped by Mcd fer Nad to treat us. Hoho.


Got back to find papa's car in front. No way am I going in to get scoldings wey. Haha, So here I am, stuck in some CC killing time with the boyf. Sheesh.

Post sounds lame today huh? Firstly, I'm in no mood to blog, 2ndly, I want a shower for fuck's sake, & thirdly, I'm too tired to function. Sheesh.
T.T

.Farah Alia.
Growing up, lost in her ups & downs, desperately trying to find the real meaning of life. With only 18 yrs of experience in life, its a journey. With memories that can nvr be forgotten.

Family. <33
The best family ever. To mummy & papa; Bringing me into this world, raising me up & protecting me, you're the only ones that I know who would never abandon me. You taught me the importance of loving a family, to take care of others, to value life & live as a good person. Even if once I didn't understand why & thought tht you were a nuisance to me, as I grow older I started to know why, & try my best to appreciate it. Of course, growing up, as Mummy puts it, I nvr know how high the sky is or how deep the ground is, in other words, I don't know my limits, but one thing's fer sure, I'll nvr forget how important family really is. Words of wisdom, I live to the fullest each day. I love you all.








Friends. <33
All sorts. Close, best, good, or just friends. All around, to laugh with, to share with, to be together with. Besties like Nad, supportive when they can be, there to cheer you up when you're down, we need people like that in our lives. I'm grateful to have friends like y'all, to share the fun I experience with. To just talk, or chill, or hangout. A part of your life that is always a must fer everyone. I love y'all. (:

Afeeqah
Ariel
Arif
Art
Beatrice
Bell
Bhairavi
Bie
Chad
Farina
Fiki
Gordon
Grace
Hafiz
Heera
JessicaLoi
Jian
MeiXin
Mell Joy Hilman
Mya
Nadirah
Natasha
Neyra
Nurul
Liyana
Liyana Sharia
Pauline
Putera
Ramadhan
Shefy
SuetLee
Syamim
Syaz
Syukri
WanYing
Wunny
Yana