.Wednesday, December 31, 2008 @ 6:42 AM Y
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& here it is. The last post fer 2008. I've been through a whole lot this year, all sorts of drama, all sorts of happiness, sadness, well, bottom line, everything. & here it is, events of 2008. Brace urselves fer a uber long post.
School & Studies
2008: The last year of school life. This year was the most important year of school life, the Spm year, aka Sijil Permainan Malaysia. Woots! Haha. Teachers were starting to push students more, more projects were to be done & completed, but basically all the Form 5s couldn't be bothered; most of us were still playful right until the last few months before Spm. Fortunately for us n'way, the Spm exams that started on the 11th November were actually quite simple, compared to the normal exams.
Top: Doing add maths.
Bottom: Last day of Spm, Est papers.
This year there were quite a number of events, the memorable ones being the Perasmian Sekolah Usj8 on 08.08.08, Majlis Penyerahan Tugas AJK Pengawas 07/08, Prefect's dinner & Graduation Day, which was held for the first time in school history. Us Form 5s did our best to spend the last year of school together, with much fun as possible. There may be many things that I don't seem to remember about school atm (wtf), but overall it was a really great year.
Perasmian Smk Usj 8, 08.08.08.
Prefect's Dinner 08, Summit Hotel.
Smk U8's Graduation Day 08.
Friends
Hmm. Friends. Yes, I have lost & gained friends throughout the yr. Well, as usual, starting with the besties. Earlier this year was really good friends with my usual galfrens, Nad & Bell. But due to certain events that happened in September, I am no longer friends with Bell. Many who see me around in school would have suspected that, seeing as I was rarely with the both of them towards the last few months of school. Nevertheless, I'm over that, & managed to have the best out of everything else, so yea, basically I moved on.
All memoirs of us three together.
Of course, apart from tht I made a lot of new friends in Myspace, especially since this year I decided to join local communities such as G.I.G.S, Marous, theChoco, BFF, Kogie & theBevy. & b'cuz of myspace too, I met someone that I love very much, someone that I know I can finally be steady with.
A sign pic I made fer one of my communities, theCHOCO.
Love & Relationships - The Longest Sub-Topic!
I've had many experiences this yr, whether it being in a relationship, a simple scandal, or just plain friends with mere misunderstanding. For some reason, this year, love & friendship got jumbled up, in my case with Nad, & the ex-bestie, Bell.
I don't plan on posting out everything that happened this yr, cuz those events are merely memoirs fer me. But of course, I'll nvr forget those events, especially with guys like Jut, Ary, Yon (all three lettered names one wtf); experiences with them showed me what sort of guys were out there, & also the many weaknesses I had, which always led to me being frustrated or hurt.
However, this yr, despite being through so much, I finally found my one & only. After all the sick experiences I've been through this year, he made up fer it all, most importantly, he cured my heart & added even more joy to it. Abdul Muhaimin Osman, better known as Casper or Amin. He had been there fer me the very second we met online.
So. The story behind me & Casper. It happened just around 2 weeks after breaking up with Ary. We started chatting in Myspace, on the 5th of June, at 3am. He sent a friend request to me, though now he's denying it & is telling everyone tht I added him cuz he's cute. Lmao. N'way, I treated him as any other ms friend I had, the typical you-send-a-cmnt-&-I'll-reply-it sort of thing. Tht is, until I decided to install yahoo messenger fer IM-ing. Then it was constant chatting with him, though soon after tht I was bz with the upcoming Spm exams & at tht time my com was kinda problematic. Lol.
Eventually after a few chats he asked fer my number. Since then, it was late night calls with him. I never talked much, being the usual 'quiet' me, but I did listen to him, as eventually after a few phone calls he started opening out to me, about problems with his current relationship then. Through those talks, he proved himself to be a very honest & caring person, & then did it amaze me that there were actually guys like him out there. Of course, as I can honestly say now, tht at tht time I only liked him as a friend, nothing more, nothing less.
However, a few months later, I had this complicated thing going on with one of his friends. Complicated in a sense that this particular guy was not my boyf, yet in a way we were like a couple. Of course, I nvr knew he was Casper's friend, & neither did he know otherwise, until he saw our myspace pgs(we had each other pics on our pg). As my feelings fer his friend became stronger, & I was starting to get clingy, he brought me back to reality when I found out that this guy I loved so much was nothing more than a fxcktard. Course, I was hurt, but if it hadn't been fer Casper, the hurt would have been much more overwhelming. This particular event is a confusing one to story about, & I don't plan on going through every detail now, cuz basically Idfc about it anymore. N'way, after this event I rarely kept in touch with Casper, as he was bz with his own probs, & I was bz with trials.
19.10.08. I rmbr tht day & the nx one very clearly. On tht afternoon I was watching Sex & The City with my family, while eating Cadbury's Rum & Raisin & texting Casper, until I finally ran out of credit. Oddly, throughout tht week, I had been thinking a lot about him, wondering how he was, & actually missing him. WTF. N'way, tht night, at 8.20pm(2020), he texted me, saying tht he was otw back to Unisel, & hoped tht I prayed fer his safety, cuz tht night he wanted to call. & he added tht he missed me, & loved me. At tht moment, in my head I was like, "Err, okay. So recently I've been thinking about him & now this guy that nvr showed any signs of liking me's saying ily to me," Lol. Basically, it was true. Since we became friends, he had nvr flirted with me, let alone show signs that he had feelings fer me. Course, he was perhaps the only guy I knew to be like tht, but it nvr bothered me.
20.10.08. 12 sumthing am, he called as promised. It was just the normal conversation we usually had, tht is, until I started talking about one of my ex boyfs tht wanted me back after my Spm & another dude tht liked me alot but I only liked as a friend. Gah, of all topics, Frh. Haha. N'way, after tht he passed his phone to his friend, Mawi, which I became friends with tht night. Apparently, as he told me later after tht, he went out to release his disapointment. Roflmao. So, after getting to know abit about Mawi, he suddenly started lecturing me, telling me tht Casper liked me, & tht I should accept him. Of course, I became very confused. After tht, the phone was passed to another friend, Atan, who gave the same lecture, & even added scolding to it, saying I must be somehow blind to not realise it. Wtf. Nevertheless, their words struck me like cold iced water, & I realised how obvious certain things were. Constant late night calls, an invitation to be his prom date, those were definitely not your usual only-friend-stuff.
An hr later, he came back, unaware of the conversations we had. He didn't know what I had found out, & I didn't confront him. Well, until he suddenly asked fer advise, saying tht he liked some gal a lot, but fer some reason he couldn't tell her how he felt. Haha. I remember feeling how I felt then. A mixture of wanting to laugh, feeling touched, knowing the very fact tht the girl was me. It was weird really, giving him advise on how to tell me he loved me. Swt.
I remember clearly how I felt the moment I accepted him. I felt tingles all over my body, as if this was what I had wanted from him all the while. It surprised me of course, cuz he was the last person I thought I'd ever have feelings for, let alone have him as my nx boyf. But what do you know, no regrets at all, right until this very second. Amazing how you can even hide your own feelings from yourself huh? Haha. Fer the 1st week of our relationship I didn't sleep fer 5 solid nights, despite having school & exams then. Was bz hanging on the phone with him. Yes, fer 6 solid hrs, 12am to 6am. Yet I showed no signs of being tired, as I'm sure Bhai & Wan Ying would have remembered, how hyper I was those mornings. Haha.
I remember every single moment tht I had with him. Our 1st date in Sunway on the 2nd Nov, the 1st time he held my hand, the very 1st kiss he gave on my forehead, the 1st kiss we shared, the day we introduced each other to our families, the fun times we had together, the laughter we shared, the outings we had, so much more. His kisses, his hugs, his touch, his laughs, his jokes, all those amazing things about him tht make me feel so happy, so complete, so perfect. He has nvr let me down, especially in these 2 months of our relationship, & he is perhaps the only guy tht I can trust completely, compared to all the others I've dated in the past. To me, he's way beyond perfect, & I'm more than glad to have him as mine. I love him with all my life, & so much more, & by the way it's going now, losing him is bound to be heart wrenching. jetaime, syg.
1st date, Sunway.
His hse, 21st December, one day after our 2nd month anniversery.
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Syg, you wat sinopsis je, I dah tulis essay kowt. Wekk. Haha.
There. A simple post. Cuz I'm a bit the lazy to update. Swtz. Besides tht, there are lots of stuff tht I don't rmbr much, so yea.
Myself
This time last yr? I was a foolish, immature bitch who couldn't get over the fact that her ex boyf had gone without a trace, without even saying much of a goodbye or asking fer a break up. & b'cuz of tht I screwed myself up, big time. I was in a relationship, with a boyf tht was head over heels in love with me yet I was out there doing other stuff with other guys, having another boyf at the same time. But of course, eventually I realise tht I was wrong, & tried to set things back to normal, though I only managed to set a few back.
This yr, I managed to set my life straight again, dropping all the stuff that I shouldn't do, like smoking for instance(yes, I stopped!). With the strong will I had & the support, love, & care I received from my current boyf, Casper, I managed to keep on the bright side of life, being who I am at this very moment.
Early yr.
Mid yr.
Now.
All grown up huh?
(:
Farewell 2008, Welcome 2009.
