.Sunday, December 30, 2007 @ 11:10 PM Y
.silence.
Was gonna save this post for tomorrow, but anyway, it's officially the 31st, & I'm not sure if I'd have time fer this later during the day.
So, 2007 is officially over in less than 24 hours. As I have repeated several times in my previous posts, time flies, just like the speed of sound.
Here's a flashback of what 2007 brought me, in all its suitable categories.
Studies.
Because of my bad PMR results, obviously I had no chance of getting into Bio class. While all my besties happily got into Bio, I got stuck in Engineering Science. Well, I was lucky enough to even be in a science class, & TK turned out to be quite interesting.
Despite the early self promises of studying hard, everything seemed to get tougher & tougher. Studying seemed to get harder, & in result bad marks, & four failing subs, Physics, Add Maths, Chemistry & Sejarah.
Joined tuition, for the first time in 4 years, & by the end of the year, the only improvement was in Physics & Add Maths, though I still failed.
Friends.
As usual, made many new friends in Myspace & Friendster, though a few started showing their true colours & no longer kept in touch. Got close to many of them, like Zaly, Aqee, Amirul, Zudy, Aliy, Khairul, Apiez, Apit, & many others(Klu name xde jgn terase, you all know who you are). Also met Is in Myspace, where we are now in the 4th month of our relationship. Apart from going online I also made friends in tuition, like Haziq, Vino, Andy, Suren, Daniel, & many more.
My circle of besties eventually started changing slightly towards the middle of the year. Started hanging out with Nadirah again, & this time with an addition of Nabilah, where the group Pokeymac Crew was formed. My old cycle of besties are still unforgotten, though now, I'd have to say, we're not exactly close as we used to be. I guess it's true that not all friendships last forever.
This year I also got lucky to meet some of my online friends in real life like Amirul Amir & Idris, who also happens to be my ex-senior in school. I'm glad to have met such wonderful people as them in Myspace.
Finally, met my long lost childhood bestie, RJ! Never thought I'd ever keep in touch with her again, since I left London, but thank God, we finally find each other online.
Relationships.
Aah. The heartwrenching part of 2007. Just writing about it again makes me feel like crying. All the happiness I thought I'd have, all the sadness I never thought would happen, all the fake promises I fell for. No, I'm not being dramatic. Boy, don't I wish I was, instead of all this happening for real.
April 1st 2007. The day my whole life turned over, the day the word relationship never was the same in my dictionary. The day where I had never felt so shattered & torn apart. Yes, the day Radhy & I fell apart. Maybe it's a boring topic if you're a frequent reader of True Love Lies, but, oh well, this is for 2007.
Why something that felt so happy, so perfect, could fall apart so easily idfk, & I won't ever. I still ask myself why, whether it was my fault, or his, or both of us, but I guess it's no use. I'll never forget every single moment we had together, even if it was just for a second, even if it was just over the phone, & I will never forget the effect he had on me, all the tears I cried for him, all the longing I had for him, yet I'll never blame him for the person I've become.
20/9/07. Another love story. The day Ismail Ihsan asked me to be his gf. I had doubts, I was torn between moving on & staying in my past. Unlike others, I was dying to stay behind, just like now, though now half of me wants to move on. But what do you know, with a blink of an eye it's four months.
Ismail's a really nice guy, who has done so much for me. I truly love him, but sometimes I just still get stuck in my past. But no matter what, I don't ever want to lose him like how I lost Radhy, & I'll try to do my best to make it work, though judging by the person I've become, it's tough.
Pets.
Never did I think that I'll ever have pets, & what do you know, I now own 4 precious cats, & had experience for a week on looking after a rabbit.
I'm so attached to them now, that if anything happened to any one of them, it would seriously break me.
Family Members.
Earlier this year, had a terrible loss. On 31 January 2007, my mother's family were crushed by terrible news. My grandma, who had taken care of me for a fair period of time, passed away. Very unexpected, cause we all imagined her to live till a very old age. She was only 60+. Everyone cried like hell, including me, as she raised me for a period of time.
Shortly after that, my grandpa suffered from stroke. Fortunately, he recovered, though now he has a problem with his speech.
Outings.
Did a lot of partying this year with Bhai, like the Hitz Fm B'day Bash & Good Charlotte live in Malaysia. First experience of concerts in Malaysia, quite disapointed, but still had fun. Stayed out until as late as 1am! Now that's what I call party!
Had quite a number of outings with friends, like going to Sunway with Wan Ying, Mei Xin & Jess, & going to Mid Valley with Bell, Nad, Bong, & Idris.
Overall Life.
Let's just say, this year brought more sadness & confusion than happiness overall. Though of course, there still are happy memories, like acting during the Prefect Dinner, or just chilling at Wan Ying's house & stuff like that.
Joined gym, which is quite fun, though the results are not so good, since I haven't been disiplining myself much. Also had the stupid times, like commiting self injury & stuff like that.
& this year, well, I've learned much more about myself. & about the opposite sex. In conclusion, as Pokeymac Crew's motto is, Love is all about sex. I've been through a lot this year, in other words experiences to help me grow up.
2008 Resolutions/Wishes/Hopes.
1. To get the ideal body by prom night.
2. To study extra hard to acheive good results for SPM.
3. To not get chosen for National Service.
4. To stay at Batu Pahat with Is for a while after SPM.
5. To learn how to drive.
6. To be with my besties once again.
For the time being, that's all.
Hitz Fm B'day Bash.
Is. (NO, not my boyf.)
Hanging with the Rempits. (wtf)
Hanging with friends.
Or just plain camwhoring.
:D
Last words for 2007,
